George Muller on Faith

"I was growing in the faith and knowledge of Jesus, but I still preferred reading religious books instead of the scriptures." -George Muller

This is something I also struggle immensely with. I'll tell myself, oh it's ok, these people know a lot about God and God showed them great things. It's not that I can't learn something from them, it's that I'm going to a secondhand source instead of the first. Why wouldn't I want to go to the very word of God? The answer is faith. I have faith that God is real. I have some faith that God will speak to me and lead me to great things. But how much faith do I have that He will deliver my sisters? Or heal my sickness? Or even use me to bring people to Jesus? I try my hardest to not worry about these things and just grow in God. Give God the glory. I try and try so much I feel that I strive to gain His love. I try to be better than everyone else not in actions but in my stories I tell. (That's where lies come from.)

When I was younger, I would lie about everything. I can't imagine how my friends even wanted to be around me. How it killed my mom everyday how I made up stories of my teachers beating me and the monsters that set the preschool on fire. That's how young I was! Preschool!

I would like to grow in faith and believe that God will answer my prayers. When I ask to be stretched He stretches me and when I ask to be filled He fills me. Now I will ask Him to build more faith in me and He will help me build it. I have to allow Him and invite Him to do these things in me. I have to open the doors in me instead of shutting Him out.

I just realized I've been listening to every song twice. Anyway, I was reading John 17:6-12 last night, trying to get ready for Group tomorrow. When I noticed in verse 12 while Jesus was praying He says, "None has been lost except the one doomed to destruction so that scripture would be fulfilled." (NIV) Jesus first says that there is only ONE doomed to destruction. Then He goes on to say that the scripture has been fulfilled. Since it has been fulfilled there isn't anyone else who can be it because it has already happened. I hope that's nothing of a stretch. 

In short, the doomed ONE has already been destructed, there can be no one else to fulfill an already fulfilled scripture. ONE! The end.